Sex Dream/ Worst Case Scenario

Sex dreams have been very common since I've been abstinent. I've just been getting them recently toward the end of my year. Before I stopped having sex I did not have sex dreams what so ever. Now that I'm trying not to have sex it's like I get a sex dream twice a month.

Last night I had a sex dream about a guy I met, not someone I know, but I guess an image of what I'm usually attracted to, and had a one night stand with. It took place in this BEAUTIFUL apartment (I guess my dream apartment completely furnished with Indian silks almost like I was in a palace. Soooo gorgeous) that I called my own. I don't want to relish the apartment, but wow! There were no modern furniture. The chairs where bean bags and the tables only stood as high as coffee tables. There were different colored sheets everywhere; purple, orange, red, pink, so amazing. Like, my mind got it right, that was in fact my dream apartment. Dream as in never going to happen, but wow!

Anyway, the dream started off so smooth. I was totally in agreement to have a one night stand with this guy. I mean I didn't argue, I didn't fight, nothing. I was completely submissive. I just smiled and walked him inside the complex. I didn't even tell him that I was abstinent, and when the act began I didn't stop it. It was completely out of my character it was almost like it wasn't me. It wasn't like one of those dreams where I could see myself doing something. It was definitely me, in body.

I remember thinking to myself that I was going to take this act to the grave and no one would know about it. I said to myself that I was going to continue living as an abstinent woman, with the exception of this one night stand. That was totally out of my character. I've never even had a one night stand before, and here I was thinking that I was going to do it and lie to myself that it didn't happen. I didn't even get the guys name. What?!

To continue the dream, we were enjoying ourselves, when a short time later he peeped out of the window to find his....guess what....girlfriend outside looking from below my building like she was waiting for him to look. She was stalking him. He popped up and rushed out the house to aid her.

So I guess you could call this a sex dream, but I would also call it my worst case scenerio. My biggest fear when entering a sexual relationship is that he could have a girlfriend. I mean, that's what happen with my ex. He persuaded me to enter a sexual relationship completely built on dating, when he had a girlfriend the whole time. He loved that girl too. Yup, we had a great little romance during the holidays, but once he got back to school he revisited his girlfriend and completely ditched me. And when I say ditch I don't mean he dumped me. No he just stopped calling and that was it. It's amazing the dumb things we do when we're young.

So yeah that dream was definitely a creation of my worst fear, and named one of the reasons why I went abstinent in the first place.

Stay tuned, I'm sure there will be more sex dreams to come. Nothing will be detailed to graph the actual act, because that's not relevant.