Love and Happiness

I got into a conversation with a coworker of mine from work and she too is thinking about marriage. She's a year younger than me, but she's been in a relationship with the man she's with since highschool. Even though she does not plan on spending the rest of her life with him, and even broke up with him the same day, she said that she wasn't into sleeping around with as many men possible just to have a good time. She also isn't interested in going to clubs for the sake of rubbing up against guys. As she was discussing what she wanted it really made me feel less of an outcast. I guess I allow my free spirited friends to put craziness in my head, but like me, she's gone through love, lost, heartbreak, and right now she just feels like committing to just one guy is better than sleeping around with more than one.

What I realized speaking to her and having these deep meaningless conversations with my free spirited friends is that her and I have more experience with love. For us, love has slapped us in the face, because of our immaturity and now we just want to grow up and experience the same feeling in a more healthy way. For my free spirited friends, they have never been in love. They have no idea what it feels like to give an emotional part of yourself and it feeling like the most precious thing in the world. There are much more beautiful and pleasurable things in the world other than great sex. As of right now I intend to find it.